Shit happens:
I cannot wrap my mind around it, still. Shit happened today that reminded me of this terrible loss. The emotions I see other people going through are so similar to the emotions that I went through when you died, and in a weird way, I find peace with that. I don’t know what you would have become over the years and I don’t know how your life would have played out and that drives me crazy, but those are my issues. Everything happens as it should, or whatever, maybe things that shouldn’t happen do happen… but either way, you died. Whether you were supposed to or not. And all I can do is continue to live life with the reality of that knowledge, and with all of the love and goodness I find in my memories of you. I love you, Lee. And I will keep on keepin’ on, for you, for me, and for everything else that I exist to complete in my lifetime.